this never got posted the last time i put it up, goodness know why.. .
and honestly, even i don't remember what i typed... because that's just what life is.. everything that happens soon passes on to make place for something else to happen, and chances are, no matter how much you hold on to it, it flows through, the harder you grasp, the faster the water flows through your fists....
so maybe the right thing is to just open your palms up wide, embrace each fresh new drop of fluid that has a reason to be there, and bid farewell to the other drops that are leaving... well, they never made a mark on you, i have no idea why, but when you think about it, it's more like wine flowing through water, forever changing the colour and the texture..... but that's not the point...
but then again, i don't know what the point is, because just like those drops of water that probably didn't mean anything anyway passes through my open palms, the thoughts keep flowing, none is better than the other, or even if it is, not like i'm a good judge for it, but the thing is, it is there, whether you want it to be or not, so might as well be happy with it... right?
NO. you can control your thoughts, it's just easier not to. doesn't man you can't. i've tried before and it's freakin hard, but it can happen, and with constant practice becomes easier too, but once in a while, i don't like to control it, just see what passes through, and on the rare occasions, i don't filter it, okay, so maybe i filter it a little, but for the most part i just let it flow as i type as fast as i can, which means to say that whatever that i'm not fast enough to type just passes on unnoticed... i don't do this because of some aim i'm trying to achieve or anything.. no... i just wanna write.. and when i wanna write i don't think, especially when i just woke up, and my brain is so numb... now if my gp teacher sees this, she'll probably just roll her eyes and give me hell the next day, but i'd rather keep on typing, coz if my fingers stop moving, i will sooner or later start thinking.... oops new para
and i don't wanna start thinking.. coz i have exams coming up, for which i haven't even started preparing, i screwed one up today, and i'm gonna screw up more things as time passe on, coz that's jut what ppl do.. how else do we learn? screwing things up once in while not only is good, but it is encouraged, how else would you noe whether or not you're pushing your boundaries? how else will you noe what are you capable of? like put in words of some song that i can't think of the title, you have to soar high and push the boundaries before you realise there are no boundaries.. oh, wait, the songs called NO BOUNDARIES -.- ..
don't worry, i shall kill myself for being so dumb sooner or later, but otherwise, life is fun. as in i'm not kidding or being sarcastic, it REALLY IS fun :D so yeah.. brain numbness = no expression on my face, but you get the point.. and this blog is not about the chimness or whatever heck of crap ppl seem to think it's filled with, it's about being retarded and happy about it :D
it's so that, when i look back i also know that i had no regrets and shall continue to strive for only that one goal...
and no link, but heck yeah, SCREW FACT FILES :D
Leonardo da Vinci said, "the poet ranks far below the painter in the representation of all the visible things,and far below the musician in the invisible things". I may not be a poet, but i believe, that without words, we can never be where we are now, for it runs deeper than our blood, faster than our thoughts, and more impactful than ever. YOu may not believe me, but without words, you wouldn't even have known he said this. Funny how contradicting life can be, huh?
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